I was confused

she was saying something about caution

as we were racing ahead

 

When I was sure she wanted us to stop, 

we did

 

To me, this was odd - the worst sort of timing 

We were on her parent's couch 

in their basement, while they were out of town 

 

I was frustrated and speechless

I stood up, she stood up,  both breathless 

shaking our heads  (for different reasons) 

 

Later,

in the calm light of afternoon

she tried to explain it to me, 

That what we were doing, was probably a mistake 

 

                                                                        described it as something she had started, as if it were a brush fire 

 

Later,

she would try and tell me it was her fault

and not to take it personally

 

of course it was too late for both of us 

 

 

 

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