I haven't noded since
May 10, 2001.
It's strange, because
E2 has been a big part of my life, I've been here for a while, I know about it back in the Days of
E1, I had an account from E1 (
ZappaPhD), and I'm hooked now. I didn't even think about the long break I had taken from noding, it just happened, and now I find my self a different
person entirely, but noding again.
I love to node.
So, almost a month without noding, and I've come so far.
I went to the beach two weeks ago, and met a really nice girl, and I guess that started to change things (it's fitting that a
woman is to blame :-). So I meet this girl, who I really enjoy. Not so much attracted to (although I was) but I just liked hearing her talk to me, I liked being in her
prescence, she made me happy, and I felt good because I (think) that I made her happy as well. (Her name was
Samantha.)
So I come
back home, and she goes home to her home in
Gainsville, Fl. (Her
family and mine go way back.) I'm home, and I feel like I
need a girlfriend.
Like I'm lacking something.
I hate feeling this way, like I'm not
independent, or
confident enough to be solitary, and be happy as well.