Holding him,
holding me
in the darkness
where you can
barely see.
My
arms tight around him
his around
me
tears on his
jacket
muffled whispers in
mine.
my
lips on the
tipof his nose,
his
forehead,
a
mere inch away.
So
close and yet so
far,
because he
promised.
His
hands on my
cheeks,
on my
back.
My hands on his
neck,
his
back, his
chest, his
face.
He
promised to
try to
hold me,
and
keep me
safe.
Holding me
tighter, but not
tight enough,
His
thumb on my
lip.
He
wanted to
kiss me
I
wanted to
kiss him
that is
betrayal
his
girlfriend is
my friend.
But we did not
act on it
We held ourselves back
How we did it,
I don't know.
I don't know how long it can last,
either. I
touched his
soul.
He
touched mine.
Our
white cores of
pain,
mixing and
mingling,
I'm
confused and
tingling
I'm not sure what I am
feeling.
Only that I'm not
supposed to
question it.
Life is like a
rubik's cube.
A
multisided one,
infinitely-sided.
I can
still feel his
hands
on my
cheeks,
I
feel so
weak.
I
miss him so,
I
dreamt of
him,
I
miss him so.
I don't
know what I am
going to do.
He
laid his
head in my
lap and just
hurt.
What is going on?
What happened?
This is a
guy I've only
Known for a few
weeks...
Or
three hundred years
What is going on?
I
miss him so.
It's so much
worse knowing
that he's going to go.
I can't
talk to
anyone
about
what's going on.
I
really miss
him
I
hope we won't be gone long
I have
no idea what's going on,
I hope it was real,
'cause it
feels like a dream.
If it was, I am going to
scream.
This is
strange
truly bizarre
What's happening here
does
anybody know?
I sure as
hell don't
Verily Wierd.
Quietly talking on the
phone,
trying to be
suitably vague.
My
mother was in the
room.
What am i going to do?
This is a
time of great
oddity,
He's not
even here to
talk with me.
Holding him, holding me
in the
darkness
where we could
barely see.
What are we doing?
What have we done?
It's all a
matter of
timing
The timing is
fucked.
The
Goddess is being a
sadistic bitch,
Waht did I do?
What have I done?
This "
complication" (not saying it's a bad thing)
is going to make life
very complicated.
Very weird,
strange,
bizarre.
What the hell is going on here?
I
sat there, holding him,
holding me,
In the
darkness
where no one else couls see.
Sharing secrets
Scared to
death...
What's is going on?
Dazed and kinda
confused,
it was
real.
I know it was
but I don't
know
what really happened?
Was it
all in my
mind,
the
tingles, the
chills,
the
feeling of his hand on my cheek,
his
breath on my
neck?
What am I going to do?!
I just keep coming back to the beginning Holding him,
Holding me,
In the darkness,
where we could barely see...
I kinda miss her... Her personality that is.